Yesterday was quite good again. I ate pretty well, felt pretty good, and had the pain and nausea under control. I got some homework done (Thank you, Amity), and spent some time visiting with a wonderful friend who came to visit me from San Francisco.
Today was kind of weird. The day started out well, especially in the calorie department. I had eaten 400 calories by 10am which was great! None of the food was all that exciting, of course. I drank an Ensure (I call it the yucky drink), ate 3/4 of a yoghurt, and chewed and swallowed a few bites of leftover vegetable beef soup...off to a good start!
At 11:30am, I threw up the yucky drink on the drive home from the airport (I wasn't the driver). I also threw up at 630pm after I took my evening medications.
My belly has been bulging, tight, and compacted since last night. I don't know what to make of it. Is it inflammation? fluids? rapidly growing tumors? Whatever it is, is uncomfortable and unsettling. I'd like to just ignore it but it is too uncomfortable to just ignore. It's like being pregnant but not knowing what it is that is causing me to be bigger overnight. I am curious to see what tomorrow brings. Maybe it will be smaller. I really don't know what is going on. Hmmm...
Hang in there Michelle, you are in the middle of the biggest prayer circle from temples to homes to temples all over the country. Tomorrow drink more yucky drink and start again. Love you.xxxooo
ReplyDeleteDitto to what barnold just said. I have Marjorie Hinckley's quote where I can read it everyday, "Everyday brings something beautiful, if we are just willing to look up and see it." She is my favorite woman in the history of ever. And you're climbing right up next to her! You have so much you could complain about, but everyday you post something beautiful. You find the good in the midst of the horrible. I wish you could birth those annoying little babies right out and get on with it already. But for now, just wake up, go get yourself a calorie filled Jamba juice, and see how long you can hold it down. Hugs dear friend.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that you are having good days and moments I keep praying that you will! I partially feel your pain in the nausea department and hope that it will lessen for you. It is so miserable! Praying you have a better day today :D love you cuz!
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