Howdy.
The last few days, I've been all sorts of lethargic, not eating, barely functioning. It's always hard to know what is going on.
This morning was the same. I got a substitute yesterday for my Primary class today because I could tell yesterday that Sacrament Meeting was probably going to be all I could handle. That was a good move as I barely made it sitting up straight for the 1.25 hours of Sacrament Meeting.
The rest of the day was decent. I felt stronger than I had for the previous few days but nothing all too impressive. The food situation is a disaster.
My third round of chemotherapy is Tuesday morning.
I am surrounded by so many wonderful people who are sacrificing left and right to help me. I just wish I felt well enough to enjoy them and to give something in return. I feel so high maintenance. I pray I will show my gratitude the best I can because I truly am so very grateful.
So sorry to hear the last few days have been rough. I hope that Tuesday goes okay, and that in the meantime you're able to keep down some food. Love ya and remember Life is Good :)
ReplyDeleteWow. Round 3 starts Tuesday. You are such a champ. I know you don't feel like it but you are. You've already been through so much. Sorry your sabbath day wasn't ideal. If only we could figure out what/how to get you to eat and not hate it.
ReplyDeleteYou deserve all the love before and after the sickness. Do not feel you are so high maintenance and simply accept all that everyone around you are trying to help. When we truly love a person, we ask nothing in return and no expection of any sort. Trust God in every step of your way, in that trust, we show our deepest respect and love for Him. The One that makes you will provide everything you need and He makes no mistakes. We continue have you in our thoughts and prayers everyday. Let God help you heal yourself, let go of the sickness, don't fight.
ReplyDelete"celebrateoften" is a genius! That was what I was going to say. Ditto to all of the above. The days you don't post, make me worry. I knew this was a hard week for you. There is nothing fun about this journey. It just stinks. But thank God for Good People! For prayers, family, ward members, friends, and blog followers. You've got an army for support and love! Just handle one thing at a time. Just one hour, then one afternoon, then one night. You can do this! xoxo M
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry to hear of your struggles. It just hurts my heart. However I am glad you are seeing your limits even on church attendance. During my treatments, there were many Sundays I would just slip in the very back in the simplest dress I had with my little green jacket and my black hat. Sometimes I just stayed long enough to take the sacrament and sometimes it was every other week. Just do what you can. It's not worth pushing yourself and paying for it later.
ReplyDeleteHere is a quote that came to my mind while reading the entry before this one:
"Your Father in Heaven and His Belived Son love you perfectly. They would not require you to experience a moment more of difficulty then is absolutely needed for your personal benefit or for that of those you love." Elder Richard G. Scott, Ensign Nov. 1995
I agree. He knows his little girl is struggling and loves her more than she can comprehend! XOXO
I love you Michelle, I am visiting Rachel, Andy,Ben & Rich in Orange County, so I am getting caught up on your blog since the 15th. Can someone take you to Bear Lake? That is my GO TO spot when I can't make it to the ocean. Today's chemo treatment will make you feel a bit better appetite wise, so I hope you gorge yourself on something delish! Here is one of my favorite poems that I carry in my head and heart, I even wrote a song to the "lyrics" - it is by Helen Steiner Rice: All the treasures of the kings, and all the gold on earth, cannot begin to equal what our memories are worth. Remembering together times and warm a lonely day, and thoughts of summer afternoons take winter's chill away. Lovely memories linger on of moments left behind, and rain will seldom come to those with rainbows on their mind...and when life seems to get us down, the thing that sees us through, IS THINKING OF THE ONES WE LOVE AND THOSE WHO LOVE US TOO. We LOVE you and hold you close in our hearts and in our prayers. May today be a rainbow day for you! Aunt Bonnie "BARNOLD"
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