One Step Back; Two Steps Forward

At the end of my visit with my PCP on Tuesday morning, he said I should hear from the Gynecological Oncologist either later that day or Wednesday.  I was anxious to get more information and make a plan.  Tuesday came and went with no word.  Wednesday morning, the Gyn-Onc office called with the news that the dr. didn't have an openings to see me until Thursday, AND they needed two more blood tests before I could see him anyway.  Looking back now, I'm sure it should have been no big deal, but I felt instantly deflated at the time. NO!  I will not wait until Thursday, and NO! I am not going back to the stupid lab to draw more stupid blood.  I will come to your office NOW, and we will get a move-on here!
Okay, so I didn't say any of that, but I sure felt deflated.  My great friend was over visiting at the time.  I remember telling her, "I don't want to do this.  I don't even want to go do the first blood test!  I think I am just already done with this whole crazy thing."  Being the level-headed person she is, she just asked me if I wanted a ride to the lab.
An unexpected thing happened at the lab.  I walked in, gave my name and birth date, went back with the tech who poked me, took two vials of blood, wrapped my arm, and we were back in the car lickety-split.  We were done, and I was on my way home.

As we walked back to the car, a scripture and the line of a hymn came to my mind.  I thought of Matt:6:34 which is Jesus speaking and says: "Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself" followed immediately by a line from the hymn "How Firm A Foundation" which says:  "As thy days may demand, so thy succor shall be."

Simply stated, two things became crystal clear to me at that moment:

1.  I must not let what is coming down the road weigh me down.  If I focus on tomorrow's challenges, it all seems too overwhelming.  Tomorrow will take care of tomorrow.  My focus needs to be on what is being asked of me right this minute.  I can do a minute.

2.  I will have what I need when I need it (and quite possibly not one minute sooner).  The Lord's succor will come according to the demands of each new day.  I will have today's manna from heaven today and tomorrow's tomorrow.  I'm not getting tomorrow's manna today.